April 30, 2008

When blood drawing goes horribly wrong...

...and you can't even see the number of times she tried in those two veins, two veins in which, upon viewing them before the blood drawing disaster, she said, "awesome, you have great veins". Bless her heart, you gotta love a new blood draw-er. (I'm pretty sure that's their professional title - Blood Draw-ers).

Blood drawing disasters and all - we're all set. I'm technically admitted and ready to go. I will say, Ignorance was definitely bliss for me - this time around there were many more questions, warnings, side effect discussions and recovery options than I would ever care to know about the "major abdominal surgery" (can't we just stick with the little "c-section" term, I like that better, thank you very much.) Unlike last time when it was just - "let's get her to the O.R. now. oxygen? yes. epiderral in? yes. Okay, off we go to have a baby"...

See you from St. John's tomorrow (hopefully they will have internet access... but last time it was really hit and miss - come on St. J's it's not 2006 anymore!)

April 29, 2008

Thursday's Project Baby #2 : Still a go!

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We had a little blip on the radar screen yesterday and this morning we were preparing for what might have been a tad bit of an early arrival due to some high blood pressure and headaches experienced by yours truly, but they think that's probably due to baby positioning and some condition (a big word involving hyper, but not tension) where the blood pressure jumps up and down in the last week or so leading up to delivery, so relaxation and left side laying was my prescription (not too bad, huh?).

I'm pretty excited about the May 1st date anyway (and I know my grandma is too), so I'm fine with waiting 48 more hours but, surprisingly, I was also perfectly fine going in today, too. That's so different than last time when I looked like a terrified 1st grader going to school for the first time as I'm leaving for the hospital (see terrible picture at right - face puffy and swolen from all the crying, fake smile and all) I was a week overdue, hugely uncomfortable, had just been told it was in mine and baby's best interest to induce that day and I still was not wanting to go. Now, I feel much more "let's get this show on the road" vs. "maybe the baby can just stay in me until she goes to college".

Edited to add:  see how much bettter I looked this time: 

So what brought about this change of heart? (Besides the drugs and therapy) :) This time, I know the next few weeks/months will be rough (potentially nearly impossible at times), but unlike last time, I also know it will get better and easier. I'm sure this has to do with my "c" word issues, but regardless, it's there and it's real - I don't do well with change and/or transition periods in life. Throw in a crazy influx of hormones and a baby I had no idea what to do with and the conditions were ripe for a meltdown the first time around. No matter how many people told me it would be better and easier, I couldn't hear that in the days after Bridget was born, so I won't preach it to my first time mom friends out there, but for me, I know it now and this is a much more comfortable place to be.

This time, I can accept that I just am not a big baby person. Don't get me wrong - they are cute and all, especially those teeny tiny little fingernails, but I can hold one for a few minutes and then be ready to give it back, unless it's sleeping, then I can hold it for a while.. anyway... I've come to understand this doesn't mean I won't love or appreciate what an amazing thing a new baby is, but it does mean I probably WILL NOT love all the early days of care and getting used to an entirely new routine and breastfeeding struggles and sleepless nights and missing designing new t-shirts and working. Because those things can be hard and stressful and NEW and different and not routine and, like my wise brother-in-law once said, "good things are good" and sometimes new motherhood is not good. I will, however, try harder to cherish this time as it is fleeting and quite possibly my last go around with a newborn, but, I also will allow myself to feel overwhelmed and discouraged with the depth of new momhood and I won't beat myself up for longing for a time in the past occasionally. I will understand that feeling that way DOES NOT a bad mom make and it does not mean I wouldn't do anything for this new little person, it just makes me flat out NORMAL. This time my mantra will be, good things will be good again, the best is yet to come.

And, hey, remember this post? Well, just look at all the progress we've made now and we still have 2 days left!

PS - Check back here next week same time same place to see if my empowered second baby mantra is working out or if I've been hiding under the bed all week eating bean burritos.

April 25, 2008

Throwback Thursday: Changes in Latitudes Edition

Surprisingly, I got to go to the Jimmy Buffett concert last night at Riverport UMB Bank Pavilion at Verizon Amphitheatre! We had AMAZING seats (best I've ever been in), awesome weather and awesome music. It was a great night for TPD and I (well at least for me and Tim got to drink beer so everyone was a winner) to kick back before things get a little busier around here for a while. The only thing missing really was that big giant margarita in my hand, but otherwise the company was good and the show was fantastic!

So, in a tardy Thursday Throwback, it reminded me of my 30th birthday (so many years ago now! ouch) in Las Vegas at the last JB concert we attended. This was Tim's first concert (I'm sure he was thrilled), my 10th or something like that and just coincidentally the Muldrow's were in town for Aimee's work so we all got to kick back the last night in Vegas for a little 30th B-day partying (after a stressful weekend of work for a-le). Fun times!

So cute, so young, so carefree... so three years ago.

Me dragging everyone to Margaritaville Las Vegas

Sooo much fun!!!

Even my parents surprised me by flying out to Vegas, too!

April 23, 2008

This is what happens a week before your new baby arrives...
Even when you don't "officially" know if it's a boy or a girl.

What are all these clothes for Mom?
For your new baby brother, Bridget...

Could these be any cuter? You can't even see the little palm trees on the side.
Just a little something for the hospital after that,
all clothes are courtesy of Boutique Matthew.
Guess which one babygirl liked best?

I shall call this one: Artsy Turtle

For the official record, I have no idea if we are having a boy or a girl.
For the unofficial record, I know we are having a boy.

What do you think?

April 22, 2008

Since I spent too much time on the new skin,
this is what you get for today...

It's an oldie, but a goodie!

Area Baby Doesnt Have Any Friends

The Onion

Area Baby Doesn't Have Any Friends

TARRYTOWN, NY-Although he's had nearly three months to meet people, stay-at-home misfit Joshua Goldsworthy hasn't made a single friend.

April 17, 2008

Wasn't the dog named Brandon or maybe it was Comet?

Today, I was a little late in dropping Bridget off at "school" her part-time daycare not far from our house. Tim had to go out of town so the dirty deed was left to me again. I try and get out of this drop-off thing if at all possible simply because it's so miserable. When Tim takes her I have a happy image in my head all day of her walking happily out the door, backpack in tow, waving, giving kisses and saying "bye bye". But when I take her I never know which Bridget I'm going to get. There's the "oh i'm so happy to see all my friends and go play - mommy who?" Bridget or the "why on god's green earth would you make me come to this forsaken place where they torture me all day long with song singing, artwork making and interactive play with my peers" Bridget. It's a toss up and as far as I can tell there is no predictor of which one you're going to get. Lately, it's been a little more of the torturous variety than mommy who variety. So, I prepared myself for the worse this morning. I was going to be confident, strong and not give into what was sure to be a veritable melt-down with the weaker of the two parents doing the drop off.

People, I was in control. Then I opened the door.

This is "young children's" week at school (??) and they've been doing activities all week to celebrate the younger ones. So today they brought in a story teller for Bridget's room and because I was so late, she was already mid-telling of some monkey/fairy story. Cute, right? WRONG. WRONG. WRONG.

She was absolutely terrifying and she scared the hell out of...... me. She was straight out of a 1984 Punky Brewster episode - you know like the really bad ones when Punky was all "expressing" herself. I'm not exaggerating here friends, the "story teller" was a (not that this matters, but it does add to the visual) very overweight 65 year-old Punky Brewster with wings! dressed in multiple layers of bright pink, yellow, purple, and plaid pattern clothes, mismatched socks and shoes, a stuffed monkey and some god-awful hat that was luckily still "hidden" behind her back for what I can only assume was to be used in a future climatic element of the monkey fairy story.

I wanted to run out the door screaming. I quickly looked at Bridget to see her reaction and the only way I can describe it is - purely mesmerized. She was taking it all in, trying to figure out what was going on. Then I looked at the other kids, and they all were fixated on Punky, too, but not in a bad way, in a happy, clap my hands jump up and down when she tells me sort of way. Bridget actually reached out for Miss Emily to go sit on the ground and get a closer look.

Wait! No tears, no heartbreaking reaching for me as I try and kiss her goodbye - in fact, there was not even a kiss goodbye or a wave - she was just off - sitting down with her friends, and actually clapping a little as I walked out the door - not caring for a second that I was leaving.

Can you believe that? All that preparation in my head, all that stress and my daughter liked scary Punky over mommy. I almost felt a little sad or something - she just didn't care about me at all. I should have been happy that it was so smooth - but again - SCARY PUNKY?! At the very least, I was relieved to get the hell out of there before that hat went on.

April 12, 2008

All this progress and we still have over two weeks left!

Baby D² new nursery checklist:

✓ Vacuum under the cradle
✓ Place sheet in wash
✓ Plug in light behind cradle

April 10, 2008

Thursday Throwback: EXACTLY 731 Days Ago Edition

Waiting for the Little Man's arrival. How have two years past already?
Happy (almost) Birthday to Matthew (and me)! :)

Yes, I'm a little embarrassed to admit this...

but I really like this promo - I get all jittery thinking about tonight! Everything is back, PEOPLE, everything:

Earl - It's been pretty funny lately - give it a chance again!
30 Rock - Right up there with the funniest show ever
The Office - The funniest show ever
Scrubs -Last season for this classic - and a sneak peak inside my brain most days = JD

aaaahhhhhh!!! I can't even stand it. What are you all planning for the biggest night on TV dinner? Hmmm... Imo's? Take out? Unfortunately, this bum gall bladder of mine is limiting my options, but I'm still going to come up with something good!

On a side note, sorry you'll miss out on this Lil' G - I know you will be preparing hard tonight for your big PE exam tomorrow. Hope you can do lot's of sit ups, push-ups and run that mile in less than 10 minutes... oh wait - maybe that's not the kind of PE exam your taking?! Seriously, good luck, hope you kick some serious Engineering ass!

April 9, 2008

I Smell a Controversy Brewing.. ha ha get it?
Brewing! Isn't that clever how I used brewing like that?

Does this new Starbucks cup freak anyone else out?

It's making me not want to get my Grande Skinny Mocha every morning... mwahhhahahaha... evil laugh... it so IS NOT making that happen, tpd.

New Cup

Old Cup

Starbucks drinkers, or whoever feels like it -take my poll to the right - and yes, maybe I should be polling about boy/girl, Hillary/Barack, or other more pressing things in life, but right now I'm thinking about Starbucks, so that's what we're polling about today.

PS - BOO KANSAS, sorry about Memphis Big D!

April 7, 2008

Monday afternoon at the park, as told in pictures

"Duck, duck"
Let me get a closer look here
What are you looking at mommy?
What is that duck doing?

Is it something like this?

Action running shots
Mommy likes this one the best
Soooo not ready to leave the park. It took about 15 minutes to buckle her in and yes,
I am mean enough to take a picture (or 8) of the meltdown.
But a cracker later, everything's fine and we're even saying bye bye to the "duck, duck"
Hope your day was just as ducky.

April 5, 2008

Top 5 Reasons to take your young toddler clothes shopping with you:

Q. Bridget, do you like this outfit?
A. Uh-huh

Q. Bridgey, does this shirt make mommy look skinny?
A. Yeah

Q. Do you have the hottest mommy in the world? (Be sure to ask this question in the same tone as if you had just said, "Want to go to McDonald's and get french fries?")
A. Yes!

Q. Do you think mommy will look good at the shower tomorrow even though she is 8 months pregnant and as big as a house?
A. Yeah.

Q. Bridget, Daddy would want mommy to buy this outfit wouldn't he?
A. Uh-huh

April 3, 2008

Throwback Thursday: 1989 Boy Band Edition *update*

I only wish I could run over to my parent's house right now and dig out a picture of my room as it stood from approximately 1988-1990 completely wallpapered with Donnie, Jordan and maybe a few group photos (but I was sooo not into Joey or Danny...bleech).

Over the course of about 4 years, I acquired practically every book, magazine, video or other item of propaganda pushed at "tweens" like myself (although we weren't called that back then) and whole heartedly wished Donnie Wahlberg would throw rocks at my window some random Tuesday night and beckon that I run away on tour with him. I'm pretty sure if I dug through my old boxes of crap treasured childhood memories I could find numerous pieces of paper where I practiced signing my name, "Erin Wahlberg" over and over just so that I was prepared.

So, in honor of Throwback Thursday, I thought we would throwback and play tribute to one of the original boy bands as they prepare to reunite. I trust you will all be watching tomorrow's Friday Concert series on the Today Show - I know I'll tune in to see 38 year old men singing "Hanging Tough" and "I'll be Loving you Forever". *Update* Apparently there is no concert today, we'll have to wait until May 16th for the actual concert...and I was so looking forward to having "Ooh...ooh..ooh..oooh...ooh... We're Hanging Tough" playing through my head all day.

Hey, Becky and Katie, you guys want to come over for a slumber party tomorrow night - we'll watch the New Kids video and rip out new pics from Tiger Beat? I get all the Donnie ones, Becky gets all the Danny ones and Katie gets Jordan or was it Joey? I think you were kind of a flip-flopper. And, yeah, I'm calling you both out - and especially you Beck, it's gotta kill you that you let your older, non-cooler cousin bully you into becoming a New Kids fan. Especially the way you tried to soooo hate them, but eventually the fever overcame you and your room was straight out of Erin's Teen Beat Decorating style, too.

Anyone else absolutely horrified that this is the 20th... yes, 20th anniversary of the release of the Hanging Tough album and are there any other closet NKOTB fans out there?

PS - Check out Doogie on the cover over there. So cute - and little did we know back then...

April 1, 2008

The Adventure of Many Lifetimes

I think I'm going to sign up for this:

An invitation.

Earth has issues, and it's time humanity got started on a Plan B. So, starting in 2014, Virgin founder Richard Branson and Google co-founders Larry Page and Sergey Brin will be leading hundreds of users on one of the grandest adventures in human history: Project Virgle, the first permanent human colony on Mars.

Read more here.

You are funny, Google.