October 19, 2008

Sad (you seriously might not want to read this downer post)

We had a great visit to the lake this weekend and tomorrow or soon I will post all the pictures, but tonight I am so sad and I thought writing about it make me feel at least a little better.

I'm watching my across-the-street neighbor's house as friends and family come and go bearing food, cards and flowers. I learned Friday, as I was packing up the car to leave for the lake, that my neighbor's 23 year old son was killed last week in a tragic accident. It was shocking and just so heart wrenching to witness a mom tell me she lost her son. She came over and told me personally and even said, 'well I'm sure you can understand how it's every mother's worst nightmare come true'. Needless to say, it's been sitting in the pit of my stomach all weekend.

In a way, it brings me back to when Ryan (a childhood friend of mine) died and watching my then across-the-street neighbors go through the same thing. Although I was much more personally involved and grieving for Ryan, this still makes me hurt and is so hard to watch as I can understand the pain they are all feeling over there and how it will never really go away.

It's just such a hard part of life to try and understand and I've never been very good at this kind of stuff. And to witness it with a front row seat tonight is sinking in pretty hard. I'm sad and achy for my neighbors and for every family that ever has to go through something like this. It reminds me of people I've lost and how much I miss them. So, it's another Josh Groban kind of evening and unfortunately, it's just heartbreaking...

Sorry - see, I warned you. I promise a happier lake post tomorrow when I'm feeling a little better. Hope everyone had a good weekend - I know on a night like tonight I certainly appreciate spending quality time with my family and friends.

1 comment:

Aimee said...

That just made me tear up. I will never understand how you go on from losing a child, whether they would be 2, 10 or 23.